Years have passed and how I am anxiously watching the twilight of my childhood, quietly sinking, never to rise again.

I talk to trees and animals. We have interesting conversations about food, weather, and love. They sometimes can predict the future.

I envied these women I saw before me, their beauty still intact. Life has its revenge of life. Untimely death is the secret of eternal youth.

To other women the choice of clothes was a form of ingenious exhibition, a shameless seduction. To me, dresses were like a breastplate that I put on to set off to war against this life.

Tomorrow we will be nothing but earth and dust. Who will remember the love a soldier once knew?

Endless moons, an opaque universe, thunder, tornadoes, the quaking earth. Rare moments of peace; forehead up against my knees, arms around my head, I though, I listened, I longed not to exist. but life was there, a transparent pearl, a star revolving slowly on its own axis.

I have written too much about lives - I feel I have lived for too long.