Religiously, we longed for the lively life in Christ, but we did not fully see that we were equally longing for the lively life of the mind - the delights of conversation at once serious and gay, which is, whatever its subject, Christ or poetry or history, the ultimately civilized thing.
Sheldon VanaukenThe adult must seem to mislead the child, and the Master the dog. They misread the signs. Their ignorance and their wishes twist everything. You are so sure you know what the promise promised! And the danger is that when what He means by โwindโ appears you will ignore it because it is not what you thought it would beโas He Himself was rejected because He was not like the Messiah the Jews had in mind.
Sheldon VanaukenWhatever one of us asked the other to do - it was assumed the asker would weigh all the consequences - the other would do. Thus one might wake the other in the night and ask for a cup of water; and the other would peacefully (and sleepily) fetch it. We, in fact, defined courtesy as 'a cup of water in the night'. And we considered it a very great courtesy to ask for the cup as well as to fetch it.
Sheldon VanaukenIt is, I think, that we are all so alone in what lies deepest in our souls, so unable to find the words, and perhaps the courage to speak with unlocked hearts, that we don't know at all that it is the same with others.
Sheldon VanaukenBoth Heaven and Hell are retroactive, all of one's life will eventually be known to have been one or the other.
Sheldon VanaukenBut I was not obeying the first and greatest commandment - to love God first - nor is it clear that I was obeying the second - to love my neighbour. Hating the oppressors of my neighbour isn't perhaps quite what Christ had in mind.
Sheldon Vanaukenโฆthough I wouldnโt have admitted it, even to myself, I didnโt want God aboard. He was too heavy. I wanted Him approving from a considerable distance. I didnโt want to be thinking of Him. I wanted to be freeโlike Gypsy. I wanted life itself, the color and fire and loveliness of life. And Christ now and then, like a loved poem I could read when I wanted to. I didnโt want us to be swallowed up in God. I wanted holidays from the school of Christ.
Sheldon Vanauken