You have a strong active nature. And this in you is a point of strength. If you can mould it rightly this will become a very great strength. On the other hand, this too is your weak point - a hindrance in sadhana.

To listen to some devout people, one would imagine that God never laughs.

Until you get a guidance from above you cannot be sure; but to get this guidance it requires time and sadhana.

One can see light above the head; that indicates a consciousness outside the body. But that itself is not the Truth-Consciousness or Vijnana. But much light descending from there illumines this consciousness.

Transform reason into ordered intuition; let all thyself be light. This is thy goal.

Is it true that existence consists only in the action of energy? Or is it not rather that energy is an output of Existence?

The all-embracing vast being which is there behind the play of the universe and with which you will have to identify yourself - for this is your true self.