Part of the reason I wrote the book was I wanted to understand for myself why such good people let themselves get treated so badly.

I am really in love with Sam, and it hurts very much.

I walked over to the hill where we used to go and sled. There were a lot of little kids there. I watched them flying. Doing jumps and having races. And I thought that all those little kids are going to grow up someday. And all of those little kids are going to do the things that we do. And they will all kiss someone someday. But for now, sledding is enough. I think it would be great if sledding were always enough, but it isn't.

And she says she wants to expose me to all these great things. And to tell you the truth, I don't really want to be exposed to all these great things if it means that I'll have to hear Mary Elizabeth talk about all the great things she exposed me to all the time. I don't understand that. I would give someone a record so they could love the record, not so they would always know that I gave it to them.

I wonder what it will be like when I leave this place.

I love my mom. And this time, I told her I loved her. And she told me she loved me, too. And things were okay for a little while.

I was in my bed trying to figure out why sometimes you can wake up and go back to sleep and other times you can't