And in that moment, I swear we were infinite.

I wanted to laugh. Or maybe get mad. Or maybe shrug at how strange everyone was, especially me.

Harold and Maude' was a seminal movie for me because it's not only a beautiful love story, but it's also about the moment when misfits find each other.

So, I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them.

And later that night to be with my family at dinnertime and have things just be like they always were. That was the amazing part. Things just keep going. We didn't talk about anything heavy or light. We were just there together. And that was enough.

Most of the people I know who were raised to be accommodating or were raised to just be nice and put everybody's needs ahead of theirs, there comes a moment when the pressure builds and they can't do it anymore. They have needs and they feel neglected and they usually explode.

And things were back to normal except we were just friends.