Happy! That is indefinable as far as states of being go.

I need not to be more with others, but to be more & more deeply, richly alone. Recreating worlds.

I had decided I would put off the novel until I had gone to Europe and had a lover.

I felt like a racehorse in a world without racetracks.

I must not be selfless: develop a sense of self. A solidness that can't be attacked.

God has to remind us this isn't heaven by a long shot, so he increases the radios and lethal flies.

I dream too much, work too little.