Your situation does not embarrass God because He has solution.
You are who you are by virtue of the company you keep.
Jesus, deliver me from the spirit of witchcraft!
God is building Himself in to us, making Himself part of us as the Word rules, dominates and sanctifies our spirit nature.
Weeping must not hinder worship.
Jesus is all the world to me my life, my joy, my all. He is my strength from day to day Without Him, I would fall.