Asking God for a specific thing will amount to limiting God to a specific answer.
Forgiveness of sin strikes the root of all pain.
For you to have any relationship with God, it must be through His Word by His Spirit.
The multitude of people fail because they talk failure.
There is no one and there will never be anyone like you.
If God has called you, the more they block your way, the more that trouble and temptation, the more God's love is provoked. Each attempt to stop you asks for more evidence from God.