For the next seven days, I challenge you not to complain at all.
Success is a learnable skill. You can learn to succeed at anything
If you believe in your value, how could it possibly be appropriate to hide it from people who need it?
Your play account is also designed to strengthen your "receiving" muscle.
A lack of money is never, ever, ever a problem. A lack of money is merely a symptom of what is going on underneath.
How do rich people think and act?