Nothing can relieve the pain. Not crying, laughing, screaming, begging. Nothing can change the past.

There are no laws, no boundaries on feelings.We can love each other as much and as deeply as we want.No one, Maya, no one can ever take that away from us.

Before there was anything, there was Lochan.

But then why is it so terrible for me to be with the girl I love? Everyone one is permitted to have what they want, express their love as they please, without fear of harassment, ostracism, persecution, or even the law. Even emotionally abusive, adulterous relationships are often tolerated, despite the harm they cause others. In our progressive, permissive society, all these harmful, unhealthy types of "love" are allowed--but not ours.

And this is something I must accept - even if, like acid on metal, it is slowly corroding me inside.

I am overcome by a feeling of complete detachment. I am a mere object to these people. I am barely human any more.

Trying to describe my life and feelings to you is like trying to describe coulours to the blind, or music to the deaf. It's simply not possible.