I think all of us feel like we're a bit on show, all the time.

My children forgave me at a time when I could barely forgive myself.

When someone was hitting me, or like sexually molesting me, it just seemed normal to continue to do that to myself.

I have a temper, but I wouldn't call me abusive.

Things get so sloppy when you're under the influence.

I've overcome physical and mental brutality - and fought back.

Griffin, my brother, 11 months younger, was sometimes the victim of my father's fury - once Ryan famously knocked out his teeth.