I remained Ryan's companion on the Hollywood party circuit, growing inured to sex and drugs before I was in my teens.

Griffin, my brother, 11 months younger, was sometimes the victim of my father's fury - once Ryan famously knocked out his teeth.

I think all of us feel like we're a bit on show, all the time.

I was punished for blowing the whistle on my father's lifestyle.

I've stood my ground in life, alone, even against overwhelming forces with the might and money to crush me.

As Peter Bogdanovich would say of Paper Moon: Ryan's wonderful in it, and he sat there and watched the kid steal the picture.

Certain struggles never end.