I remained Ryan's companion on the Hollywood party circuit, growing inured to sex and drugs before I was in my teens.

The more love I craved, the more distant and abusive he grew. The role I longed to play was never written into Ryan's script: daughter.

I never dreamed that shooting a film would be so hard. There was less regulation then of child actors' hours. Even the concept of acting confused me.

When someone was hitting me, or like sexually molesting me, it just seemed normal to continue to do that to myself.

Paper Moon didn't bring me love.

I remained Ryan's companion on the Hollywood party circuit, growing inured to sex and drugs before I was in my teens.

I think all of us feel like we're a bit on show, all the time.