All creative work, all life in a sense, is a cri de coeur.
Take by surprise and the world gives up resistance.
It's hard enough for me to write what I want to write without me trying to write what you say they want me to write which I don't want to write.
Things have a way of turning out so badly.
Most of the confidence which I appear to feel, especially when influenced by noon wine, is only a pretense.
I must endure & endure & still endure.