Why don’t the Grammys matter? Because it feels rigged and cheap - like a popularity contest that the insiders club has decided.

I feel uncomfortable because I'm insecure about who I am.

Jumping through any hoop or taking advantage of any desperate situation that comes up just to sell a product is harmful. It is.

Though I still have no semblance of a life outside of Nine Inch Nails at the moment, I realize my goals have gone from getting a record deal or selling another record to being a better person, more well-rounded, having friends, having a relationship with somebody.

I realized when I was 23 that I had never really tried anything.

I hated school . . . I freaking hated it. The fact is that it revolved around something you didn't have access to. If you weren't on the football team, if you were in the band, you were a leper. When people say those were the best years of our lives, I want to scream.

Frankly, I have always dreaded writing - there always seemed to be pain involved, unpleasant self-examination and a lot of fear.