I'm surprised you know that," I say quietly, " since you left halfway through my one and only fight." "It wasn't something I wanted to watch." he says. What's that supposed to mean?

I'll say it one last time: Be brave.

But maybe what I saw as fearless was actually fear under control.

Suicide to them is an act of selfishness. Someone who is truly selfless does not think of himself often enough to desire death.

Yesterday he told me he thought I would have to pretend to be weak, but he was wrong. I am weak already. I brace myself against the wall and press my forehead to my hands. It’s difficult to take deep breaths, so I take short, shallow ones. I can’t let this happen. They attacked me to make me feel weak. I can pretend they succeeded to protect myself, but I can’t let it become true.

I never thought I would need bravery in the small moments of my life. I do.

The reason the factions were evil is because there was no way out of them. They gave us the illusion of choice without actually giving us a choice.