I think that you are the liar!" I say, my voice quaking. "You tell me you love me, you trust me, you think I'm more perceptive than the average person. And the first second that belief in my perceptiveness, that trust, that love is put to the test, it falls apart." I am crying now, but I am not ashamed of the tears shining on my cheeks or the thickness of my voice. "So you must have lied when you told me all those things... you must have, because I can't believe your love is really that feeble.
Veronica RothI think about pressing myself against him, but I can't, because all our secrets would keep a space between us.
Veronica RothColor fills her cheeks, and I think it again: that Johanna Reyes might still be beautiful. Except now I think that she isn't just beautiful in spite of the scar, she's somehow beautiful with it, like Lynn with her buzzed hair, like Tobias with the memories of his father's cruelty that he wears like armor, like my mother in her plain gray clothing.
Veronica RothI should probably be afraid. But instead a hysterical laugh bubbles inside me, because I just remembered something: Maybe I canโt hold a gun. But I have a knife in my back pocket.
Veronica RothYou don't have to tell me everything right away, but I have to tell you everything right away? Can't you see how stupid that is?
Veronica RothI feel like someone is pressing me into a mold that does not fit my body, forcing me intothe wrong shape.
Veronica RothThe cruelty of fate is that I must travel with the people I hate when the people I love are dead behind me.
Veronica RothInstead I just let the silence stretch out between us. It's the only adequate response to what he just told me, the only that does the tragedy any justice instead of patching it hastily and moving on.
Veronica RothI used to go outside every day and invent these elaborate worlds and scenarios in my head, and when I grew too old for playing pretend, I started to write everything down instead.
Veronica RothThen his eyes focus on something over my shoulder, and he starts walking. I turn to see Uriah jogging from the elevator bank. He is grinning. โHeard a rumor you were a dirty traitor,โ Uriah says. โYeah, whatever,โ says Zeke. They collide in an embrace that looks almost painful to me, slapping each otherโs backs and laughing with their fists clasped between them.
Veronica RothHe told me once to be brave, and though I have stood still while knives spun toward my face and jumped off a roof, I never thought I would need bravery in the small moments of my life. I do.
Veronica RothI laugh, and it's laughter, not light, that casts out the darkness building within me, that reminds me I am still alive, even in this strange place where everything I've ever known is coming apart.
Veronica RothLeaving us with Eric is like hiring a babysitter who spends his time sharpening knives.
Veronica RothValuing knowledge above all else results in a lust for power, and that leads men into dark and empty places.
Veronica RothAll I want to say is that when you stop being delusional and start feeling desperate because you're too inept to figure this out on your own, you know who to come to.
Veronica RothBeing selfless is not that different from being brave. It is when you are selfless that you are the bravest.
Veronica RothHe leans his face close to mine and wraps his fingers around my chin. His hand smells like metal. When was the last time he held a gun, or a knife?
Veronica RothAre you asking me to undress, Tris?' A nervous laugh gurgles from my throat. 'Only ... partially
Veronica RothCan I ask why youโre throwing knives at cheese?โ โCaleb came by to discuss something,โ Tobias says, leaning his head against the wall as he looks at me. โAnd knife-throwing just came up somehow.โ โAs it so often does,โ I say, a small smile inching across my face.
Veronica RothI am fed up. I am fed up with tears and weakness. But there isn't much I can do to stop them.
Veronica RothYeah, well," I say, "I left Abnegation because I wasn't selfless enough, no matter how hard I tried to be." "That's not entirely true." He smiles at me. "That girl who let someone throw knives at her to spare a friend, who hit my dad with a belt to protect me-that selfless girl, that's not you?"... "You've been paying close attention, haven't you?" "I like to observe people/" "Maybe you were cut out for Candor, Four, because you're a terrible liar.
Veronica RothI know that I'll be writing for young adults for a long time. Mostly because I just love the readers and the teachers and librarians that I interact with.
Veronica RothInsurgent, he says. Noun. A person who acts in opposition to the established authority, who is not necessarily regarded as a belligerent.
Veronica RothDo you know him well?" I ask.I am too curious; I always have been. "Everyone knows Four," she says. "We were initiates together.I was bad at fighting,so he taught me every night after everyone was asleep." She scratches the back of her neck, her expression suddenly serious. "Nice of him." She gets up and stands behind the members sitting in the doorway. In a second, her serious expression is gone,but I still feel rattled by what she said, half confused by the idea of Four being "nice" and half wanting to punch her for no apparent reason.
Veronica RothHe smiles in my memory. A curled lip. Straight teeth. Light in his eyes. Laughing, teasing, more alive in memory than I m in reality. It was him or me. I chose me. But I feel dead too.
Veronica RothEvery faction conditions its members to think and act a certain way. And most people do it. For most people, it's not hard to learn, to find a pattern of thought that works and stay that way. But our minds move in a dozen different directions. We can't be confined to one way of thinking, and that terrifies our leaders. It means we can't be controlled. And it means that no matter what they do, we will always cause trouble for them.
Veronica RothBefore she got here everything had stalled inside me, and every morning I was just moving toward nighttime.
Veronica RothAl walks in, and I don't even have to ask him to help me, he just walks over and strips bedding with me. i will have to scrub the frame later. Al carries the stack of sheets to the trash and together we walk toward the training room. "Ignore him," Al says. "He's an idiot, and if you don't get angry, he'll stop eventually.
Veronica RothWhy did you do it?" I say. "You want me dead. You were willing to do it yourself! What changed?" He presses his lips together and doesn't look away, not for a long time. Then he opens his mouth, hesitates, and finally says, " I can't be in anyone's debt. Okay? The idea that I owed you something made me sick. I would wake up in the middle of the night feeling like I was going to vomit. Indebted to a stiff? It's ridiculous. Absolutely ridiculous. And I couldn't have it.
Veronica RothAll I want is to become someone new. In this case, Tobias Johnson, son of Evelyn Johnson. Tobias Johnson may have lived a dull and empty life, but he is at least a whole person, not this fragment of a person that I am, too damaged by pain to become anything useful.
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