I think to be 'tough' means you look relaxed. So you have to be tough to win tournaments. But you don't want to be so tough on yourself.
You learn from your mistakes, and I think it's a good thing as long as you learn something.
We always learn more from the losing than the winning.
I feel very peaceful.
I have the picture in my mind of how emotional I will feel if I win again.
I am very happy since when I am in different cities I can experience and learn different cultures!