I loved him. I hated him. I wanted to kiss him. I wanted to strangle him. I was a walking, talking contradiction. There were days I was so torn by my conflicting emotions that I thought I would be ripped in half. Staring at my best friend and secret object of my undying love, I wondered if I would ever get off this crazy train of emotions swirling around inside me. I didn't like feeling this way. But the truth was I couldn't remember a time I didn't feel this aching need to completely immerse myself in all things Daniel Lowe.

I could use a little monotony in my life. Spontaneity is exhausting.

When would I stop being second choice? Would I ever be number one to the person I cared most about in the world?

I still hung onto the hope that my broken knight would gallop back into my life and sweep me off my feet.

This is what love was supposed to feel like.This perfect immersion of two people who were ready and willing to become a part of each other.

Daniel Lowe. My savior. My perfect guy. The boy who would never love me the way that I loved him.

I loved him. I hated him. I wanted to kiss him. I wanted to strangle him. I was a walking, talking contradiction. There were days I was so torn by my conflicting emotions that I thought I would be ripped in half. Staring at my best friend and secret object of my undying love, I wondered if I would ever get off this crazy train of emotions swirling around inside me. I didn't like feeling this way. But the truth was I couldn't remember a time I didn't feel this aching need to completely immerse myself in all things Daniel Lowe.