The past influences everything and dictates nothing.
I am always true to myself, that is the problem. Who else could I be true to?
You write to find out what you believe.
People change, but there really are limits. One thing you discover in psychoanalytic treatment is the limits of what you can change about yourself or your life. We are children for a very long time.
Monogamy is a way of getting the versions of ourselves down to the minimum.
To grow up is to discover what one is unequal to.