When you're scared - and I mean really scared, not just hearing a noise in the night, or standing toe to toe with someone twice your size who wants to pound you into the earth - it feels as if you're being injected with darkness. It's like black water as cold as ice settling in your body where your blood and marrow used to be, pushing every other feeling out as it fills you from your feet to your scalp. It leaves you with nothing.
Alexander Gordon SmithI'd been so set on an escape that was now impossible, and the only form of freedom left to me was death. It was a terrible kind of freedomโone from misery and pain, yes, but also one from lightness and laughter and life. It was an absence of everything.
Alexander Gordon SmithWhen you're locked up in here for life, you learn to welcome the little freedoms.
Alexander Gordon SmithLet me know if you're going to do something stupid, kid, 'cause I'll ditch you like that.
Alexander Gordon SmithTrust me-that toilet and me were best friends for the first few days I was here.
Alexander Gordon Smith