If I now recognize evil in other people, is it not because I have become evil too?

You have to be your own person. You can't let people's opinions determine how you think about yourself. There's a difference between identity and self-identity.

With each passing day, I didn't lose hope. I fought to have more.

Among writers, if you don't have a therapist, it's like saying you don't keep a journal or use the thesaurus. It's a natural accompaniment.

While it is good to speak well, it is better to speak the truth.

Why do you think you are missing something you never had?

Isn't that how it is when you must decide with your heart? You are not just choosing one thing over another. You are choosing what you want. And you are also choosing what somebody else does not want, and all the consequences that follow. You can tell yourself, That's not my problem, but those words do not wash the trouble away. Maybe it is no longer a problem in your life. But it is always a problem in your heart.