The only way someone can be of help to you is in challenging your ideas.
If what you said was true, where was the need to shout?
As soon as you look at the world through an ideology, you are finished. No reality fits ideology.
Problems exist only in the human mind.
The seeker says, "I do not know." That takes honesty. The master says, "I do not know." That takes a mystic's mind that knows things through non-knowing. The disciple says, "I know." That takes ignorance, in the form of borrowed knowledge.
If you never condemned you would never need to forgive.