...and I suddenly feel that Henry is there, incredible need for Henry to be there and to put his hand on me even while it seems to me that Henry is the rain and I am alone and wanting him - Clare

Listen, sometimes when you finally find out, you realize that you were much better off not knowing.

He made the boxes because he was lonely. He didn't have anyone to love, and he made the boxes so he could love them, and so people would know that he existed, and because birds are free and the boxes are hiding places for the birds so they will feel safe, and he wanted to be free and be safe. The boxes are for him so he can be a bird.

The engagement ring is an emerald, and the dim light from the window is refracted green and white in it. The rings are silver, and they need cleaning. They need wearing, and I know just the girl to wear them.

Now I wonder if it means that the future is a place, or like a place, that I could go to; that is go to in some way other than just getting older.

But you make me happy. It's living up to being happy that's the difficult part.

And Clare, always Clare.