To the extent that I had come to understand that despair does not necessarily result in annihilation, that one can go on as usual in spite of it, I had become hardened. Was this what it means to be an adult, to live with ugly ambiguities? I didn't like it, but it made it easier to go on.
Banana Yoshimotoit'll be this kind of deep blueโshe said. โThe kind of color that somehow sucks your eyes and your ears and all your words โthe color of a completely closed-in night
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