To the extent that I had come to understand that despair does not necessarily result in annihilation, that one can go on as usual in spite of it, I had become hardened. Was this what it means to be an adult, to live with ugly ambiguities? I didn't like it, but it made it easier to go on.
Banana YoshimotoI should have told her at the time. I could have taken a deep breath, looked away, and forced myself to say it.
Banana YoshimotoThis world of ours is piled high with farewells and goodbyes of so many different kinds, like the evening sky renewing itself again and again from one instant to the next-and I didnโt want to forget a single one.
Banana YoshimotoTime expands and contracts. When it expands, itโs like pitch: it folds people in its arms and holds them forever in its embrace. It doesnโt let us go so easily. Sometimes you go back again to the place youโve just come from, stop and close your eyes, and realize that not a second has passed, and time just leaves you there, stranded, in the darkness
Banana YoshimotoSo, have you been enjoying yourself these days, Kazami?' I'm having lots of fun.' It was true. That made the sense of regret even keener, that this time in my life would soon be a thing of the past. I felt as if I could understand a little of what my mother had been through, and the feelings she may have had at different times. I wasn't a child anymore, and this made me feel awfully lonesome, and utterly alone.
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