So, have you been enjoying yourself these days, Kazami?' I'm having lots of fun.' It was true. That made the sense of regret even keener, that this time in my life would soon be a thing of the past. I felt as if I could understand a little of what my mother had been through, and the feelings she may have had at different times. I wasn't a child anymore, and this made me feel awfully lonesome, and utterly alone.
Banana YoshimotoWhy were we so far apart, even when we were together? It was a nice loneliness, like the sensation of washing your face in cold water.
Banana YoshimotoTruly happy memories always live on, shining. Over time, one by one, they come back to life.
Banana YoshimotoBut I have my life, Iโm living it. Itโs twisted, exhausting, uncertain, and full of guilt, but nonetheless, thereโs something there.
Banana YoshimotoI wonder what it felt to move to a country where you didn't grow up. I had thought about that often since my sister got married. Do you become a character in a story native to that land, or do you, somewhere in your heart, want to return to your homeland.
Banana YoshimotoOn nights like this when the air is so clear, you end up saying things you ordinarily wouldnโt. Without even noticing what youโre doing, you open up your heart and just start talking to the person next to youโyou talk as if you have no audience but the glittering stars, far overhead.
Banana Yoshimoto