I pretend I've got lots of confidence and I'm a big jock and like that but deep inside I'm a frightened, insecure, can't-make-it failure.

I bet the pill is harder to get than drugs--which shows how screwed up this world really is!

My biggest mistake: not wanting to help myself into thinking I am happy, that change would come about without really trying to change, or wanting to change. Procrastinating about changing. I do want to change.

I'm afraid to live and afraid to die.

Lying - remembering beauty in truth.

Sometimes fantasies are better than life.

Maybe the new me will be different.