I had all the characteristics of a human beingโflesh, blood, skin, hairโbut my depersonalization was so intense, had gone so deep, that my normal ability to feel compassion had been eradicated, the victim of a slow, purposeful erasure. I was simply imitating reality, a rough resemblance of a human being, with only a dim corner of my mind functioning
Bret Easton EllisIt's because you're always fighting sentiment. You're fighting sentimentality all of the time because being a mother alerts you in such a primal way.
Bret Easton EllisI had dreamed of something so different from what reality was now offering up, but that dream had been a blind man's vision. That dream was a miracle. The morning was fading. And I remembered yet again that I was a tourist here.
Bret Easton EllisI totally relate to Tom Cruise. He's not crazy, it's just the litany of the mid-life crisis.
Bret Easton EllisI laugh maniacally, then take a deep breath and touch my chest- expecting a heart to be thumping quickly, impatiently, but there's nothing there, not even a beat.
Bret Easton EllisShe laughs and looks out the window and I think for a minute that she's going to start to cry. I'm standing by the door and I look over at the Elvis Costello poster, at his eyes, watching her, watching us, and I try to get her away from it, so I tell her to come over here, sit down, and she thinks I want to hug her or something and she comes over to me and puts her arms around my back and says something like 'I think we've all lost some sort of feeling.
Bret Easton EllisWhat do you do?' she asks, holding out the vest. 'What do you do?' 'What do you do?' she asks, her voice shaking. 'Don't ask me, please. Okay, Clay?' 'Why not?' She sits on the mattress after I get up. Muriel screams. 'Because... I don't know,' she sighs. I look at her and don't feel anything and walk out with my vest.
Bret Easton EllisWriting fiction is an act of imagination and fantasizing, and it's not relating in prose what you've been doing for the last two or three years.
Bret Easton EllisI think a lot of snowflakes are alike...and I think a lot of people are alike too.
Bret Easton EllisHe was simply someone who floated through our lives and didn't seem to care how flatly he perceived everyone or that he'd shared our secret failures with the world, showcasing the youthful indifference, the gleaming nihilism, glamorizing the horror of it all.
Bret Easton EllisI'm really shocked when critics get morally outraged at my fiction because they think I'm condoning what's going on. I never come in as the author and say, "Hey, okay. I'm interrupting the narrator here. I'm Bret Easton Ellis, and I'm the author."
Bret Easton EllisI think my sensibility is very literary; all my books were built as books, and I wasn't thinking about them being movies.
Bret Easton EllisI come to a red light, tempted to go through it, then stop once I see a billboard sign that I donโt remember seeing and I look up at it. All it says is 'Disappear Here' and even though itโs probably an ad for some resort, it still freaks me out a little and I step on the gas really hard and the car screeches as I leave the light.
Bret Easton EllisAnd as the elevator descents, passing the second floor, and the first floor, going even father down, I realize that the money doesn't matter. That all that does is that I want to see the worst
Bret Easton Elliswhat's right? If you want something, you have the right to take it. If you want to do something, you have the right to do it.
Bret Easton EllisOur lives are not all interconnected. That theory is a crock. Some people truly do not need to be here.
Bret Easton Ellis... her taste in music haunted my memory and I had to stop at Tower Records on the Upper West Side to buy ninety dollars' worth of rap CDs but, as expected, I'm at a loss: [...] voices uttering ugly words like digit, pudding, chunk.
Bret Easton EllisOpen the hood of a car and it will tell you something about the people who designed it, is just one of many phrases Iโm tortured by.
Bret Easton EllisEveryone I know who is successful has issues with their father, regardless of whether it was sports or business or entertainment.
Bret Easton EllisWhen we sat down to eat I took inventory of the people in the room, and the remnants of my good mood evaporated when I realized how very little I had in common with them โ the career dads, the responsible and diligent moms โ and I was soon filled with dread and loneliness. I locked in on the smug feeling of superiority that married couples give off and that permeated the air โ the shared assumptions, the sweet and contented apathy, it all lingered everywhere โ despite the absence in the room of anyone single at which to aim this.
Bret Easton EllisWhy would I care what other people are thinking? I don't care what an audience thinks of me.
Bret Easton EllisThereโs no grand plan. All I know is that I write the books I want to write. All that other stuff is meaningless to me.
Bret Easton EllisWriting a novel that works is an extremely difficult thing to do. It requires a level of skill and dedication that always surprises me.
Bret Easton EllisA child should never even think about being a "good son." A parent decides that fate for the child. The parent encourages that. Not the child himself. And the "perfect dad"? I shudder at thinking what that may be.
Bret Easton Ellisbut I don't want to wear a condom because I don't feel anything," and she says calmly... glaring at me,"If you don't use one you're not going to feel anything anyway.
Bret Easton EllisWriting a novel is not method acting and I find it easy to step out of it at cocktail hour.
Bret Easton EllisI have all the characteristics of a human being: blood, flesh, skin, hair; but not a single, clear, identifiable emotion, except for greed and disgust. Something horrible is happening inside of me and I don't know why. My nightly bloodlust has overflown into my days. I feel lethal, on the verge of frenzy. I think my mask of sanity is about to slip.
Bret Easton EllisYou do not write a novel for praise, or thinking of your audience. You write for yourself; you work out between you and your pen the things that intrigue you
Bret Easton EllisAnd it struck me then, that I liked Sean because he looked, well, slutty. A boy who had been around. A boy who couldn't remember if he was Catholic or not.
Bret Easton EllisI learned that you really don't have any control as a writer. Waah, waah, waah. Big deal. Unless you're the director on the movie, or putting up the money for the movie, you really don't have a lot of control. As someone who's just writing scripts, you just kind of have to shrug. I have no problems or issues with screenwriting in general. It is what it is.
Bret Easton EllisI keep feeling that people are becoming less human and more animalistic. They seem to think less and feel less so that everyone is operating on a very primitive level. I wonder what you and I will see in our lifetimes. It seems so hopeless yet we must keep on trying ... I guess we can't escape being a product of the times, can we?
Bret Easton Ellis'Do you know what Ed Gein said about women?' [...] '"When I see a pretty girl walking down the street I think two things. One part of me wants to take her out and talk to her and be real nice and sweet and treat her right."' I stop finish my J&B in one swallow. 'What does the other part of him think?' Hamlin asks tentatively. 'What her head would look like on a stick...'
Bret Easton EllisI like the idea of a writer being haunted by his own creation, especially if the writer resents the way the character defines him.
Bret Easton EllisAnd though the coldness I have always felt leaves me, the numbness doesn't and probably never will. this relationship will probably lead to nothing... this didn't change anything. I imagine her smelling clean, like tea.
Bret Easton Ellis