Lack of understanding is always painful.
My happiness isn't dependent on anyone else's.
You move totally away from reality when you believe that there is a legitimate reason to suffer".
If something happens to your son, your thoughts about not having him in your life is what your terror is. It's not about his life.
It doesn´t come later. Everything you´re supposed to do is here right now.
Your suffering is never caused by the person you're blaming.