When my brother, Todd [Fisher], was born my father was already with Elizabeth [Taylor]. I was 19 or 20 when I first spent a block of time with him.

I'd like to wear my old [cinnamon buns] hairstyle again - but with white hair. I think that would be funny.

Everything grows rounder and wider and weirder, and I sit here in the middle of it all and wonder who in the world you will turn out to be.

What worries me is, what if this guy is really the one for me and I just haven't had enough therapy yet for me to be comfortable with having found him.

Come to think of [a handsome young carpenter], Harrison Ford used to be a carpenter.

I rarely think about my childhood. It's a slippery thing I can't keep hold of for long - it slithers out of my grasp. And a lot of the time I remember what was missing instead of what was there. I am a chronicler of absence.

Mania starts off fun, not sleeping for days, keeping company with your brain, which has become a wonderful computer, showing 24 TV channels all about you. That goes horribly wrong after awhile.