A woman must be nursed into subsistence by love, where a man can become stronger by being hated." - from 'Cows in Art Class

I lapsed into my pathetic cut-off period. Often with humans, both good and bad, my senses simply shut off, they get tired, I give up. I am polite. I nod. I pretend to understand because I don’t want anybody to be hurt. That is the one weakness that has lead me into the most trouble. Trying to be kind to others I often get my soul shredded into a kind of spiritual pasta. No matter. My brain shuts off. I listen. I respond. And they are too dumb to know that I am not there.

Real loneliness is not necessarily limited to when you are alone.

..few writers like other writers' works. The only time they like them is when they are dead or if they have been for a long time. Writers only like to sniff their own turds. I am one of those. I don't even like to talk to writers, look at them or worse, listen to them. And the worst is to drink with them, they slobber all over themselves, really look piteous, look like they are searching for the wing of the mother. I'd rather think about death than about other writers. Far more pleasant.

The problem with the world is that the intelligent people are full of doubts, while the stupid ones are full of confidence.

In the morning it was morning and I was still alive.

...having nothing to struggle against they have nothing to struggle for.