I love being a beginner. It can be a terrible feeling because you're ashamed of everything you do, but it's so exciting at the same time.

I was very attached to my family when my father died. I was 19. I was about to go live with my father right when he died, so it was very intense.

I think I developed a very closed personality. I didn't really have friends. I changed schools every year.

Maybe, in the back of my head, I'm thinking I have to do as much as I can. It'll stop.

Wanting to do it was much more powerful than the fright.

I felt that people would criticize everything. I was so scared about playing Paris. I was very much aware that the greatest concerts my father and mother had done were there. I was sure people would be very tough.

I wish I could just accept that I'm not that good and not be shy about the fact that I'm not that professional.