I didn't want to change my personality onstage, but I still had to build some kind of ego to be able to go up there. If not, there's no point.

I still find it hard to push my own limits. I know where my limits are and that I always have to push myself.

I used to hate being recognised.

Even moving around onstage seemed very artificial. But at the same time you have to make that effort in order to get back to who you are and even accept not moving, if that's who you are.

I wish I could just accept that I'm not that good and not be shy about the fact that I'm not that professional.

I don't feel I have to share everything.

I love being a beginner. It can be a terrible feeling because you're ashamed of everything you do, but it's so exciting at the same time.