I'm terrified of men these days. If someone asked me out now, I don't know what I'd say, how I'd react. But I couldn't go through with it, not at all. I suppose I've been terrified of them all along.
I enjoyed sex and indulged in it when I fancied the men.
Bill Astor knew these papers were missing. Stephen showed his hand in October.
I took on the sins of everybody, of a generation, really.
I never found anyone who was good enough, who I could trust enough.
I have always been free with my love - it is my nature. I am easily captivated by men and they have always been attracted to me.