Just for the record, the weather today is calm and sunny, but the air is full of bullshit.
There will always be an underground.
The truth is, every son raised by a single mom is pretty much born married. I don't know, but until your mom dies it seems like all the other women in your life can never be more than just your mistress.
The answer is there is no answer.
It's easy to cry when you realize that everyone you love will reject you or die.
Everyone holds a certain type of power. For young people, it's their youth, their attractiveness, and their energy. But they're terrified that as those qualities fade, what are they going to replace that form of power with?