Sport that consumed me for over two decades . . . is now gone. Now it's just me. No pressure, no expectations, no need to be fast, good, strong or to even improve. Yet I can't let go of this idea that I always need to be more than I am. And it is eating me alive.

My goal is to try to avoid a regular job.

With athletes, it's never fully understood the level to which we push ourselves. Especially in an endurance sport.

I still can't believe I won the Olympics. That's what I feel right now - completely alive as a human being. It's a really beautiful moment.

What I have to do now is figure where my passion is, and follow my heart; I've proven that if I have the passion for something then I can succeed. I haven't been listening to my heart in the last little while.

I am kind of like a diesel. It is the cyclist in me.

I love skating so much and I feel like every time I step out onto the ice, that's what I'm meant to do.