John was an extraordinary man. Our relationship has shaped much of my life. I have always loved him and never stopped loving him. Thatโs why I want to tell the real story of the real John โ the infuriating, lovable, sometimes cruel, funny, talented and needy man who made such an impact on the world. John believed in the truth and he would want nothing less.
Cynthia LennonJohn needed to escape his reality. I understood completely but I couldn't go along with him.
Cynthia LennonJohn asked me to dance and I nearly died. Bingo! I then amazed myself by being very cool, calm and collected outwardly-inside I was out of this world. The dance was slow and smoochy. I was aloof and John, I think, was slightly embarrassed. It was all very painful and beautiful at the same time. The remaining students were looking on with puzzled expressions at such an unlikely combination.
Cynthia LennonRingo had this habit of lighting up two cigarettes, one for Maureen at the same time that he lit his own. I remember thinking it was a loving thing to do and wishing John did it for me. But that would have been too obviously demonstrative, maybe, for John.
Cynthia LennonJohn was in constant need of proof of love and security and he was constantly testing people for that proof.
Cynthia LennonJohn was an extraordinary man. Our relationship has shaped much of my life. I have always loved him and never stopped loving him. Thatโs why I want to tell the real story of the real John โ the infuriating, lovable, sometimes cruel, funny, talented and needy man who made such an impact on the world. John believed in the truth and he would want nothing less.
Cynthia LennonJohn and I weren't capable of getting back to Kenwood from there, so the four of us sat up for the rest of the night as the walls moved, the plants talked, other people looked like ghouls and time stood still. It was horrific: I hated the lack of control and not knowing what was going on or what would happen next.
Cynthia Lennon