You spend so much time, so much effort, trying to hold yourself together. And then everything falls apart anyway.

If you let the world in, you open yourself up to the world. Even if the world doesn't know that you're there.

Indelible, adj. That first night, you took your finger and pointed to the top of my head, then traced a line between my eyes, down my nose, over my lips, my chin, my neck, to the center of my chest. It was so surprising. I knew I would never mimic it. That one gesture would be yours forever.

What a horrible feeling that is, to know that if the disease [AIDS] had primarily affected PTA presidents, or priests, or white teenage girls, the epidemic would have been ended years earlier, and tens of thousands, if not hundreds of thousands of lives would have been saved.

But if I didn’t want to be alone, then why didn’t I want to be with anyone else?

I close my eyes. And i scream. If my whole world is crashing down around me, then I am going to make the sound of the crashing. I want to scream until all my bones break.

I text tiny a minute later. MADE NEW GAY FRIEND. And he texts back PROGRESS!!!