And just like that, the universe goes wrong. Just like that, all the enormity seems to shrink into a ball and float away from my reach. I feel it, and she doesn't. Or I feel it, and she won't.
David LevithanI love you,โ she says. โI love you,โ I say. And then we hang up, because nothing else needs to be said after that. I want to give Zara her life back. Even if I feel I deserve something like this, I donโt deserve it at her expense.
David LevithanWe could call you an ambisexual. A duosexual. Aโโ โDo I really have to find a word for it?โ Kyle interrupts. โCanโt it just be what it is?โ โOf course,โ I say, even though in the bigger world Iโm not so sure. The world loves stupid labels. I wish we got to choose our own. We pause for a moment. I wonder if thatโs allโif he just needed to say the truth and have it heard. But then Kyle looks at me with unsure eyes and says, โYou see, I donโt know who Iโm supposed to be.โ โNobody does,โ I assure him.
David Levithan"I want you to spend the night," you said. And it was definitely your phrasing that ensured it. If you had said, "Let's have sex," or "Let's go to my place," or even "I really want you," I'm not sure we would have gone quite as far as we did. But I loved the notion that the night was mine to spend, and I immediately decided to spend it with you.
David Levithan