yearning n. and adj. At te core of this desire is the belief that everything can be perfect.

I never have people tell me their stories. I usually have to figure them out myself. Because I know that if people tell me stories, they will expect them to be remembered. And I cannot guarantee that. There is no way to know if the stories stay after I'm gone. And how devastating would it be to confide in someone and have the confidence disappear? I don't want to be responsible for that.

instead i head to the computer and it's like i turn into a little girl who's just seen her first rainbow. i get all giddy and nervous and hopeful and despairing and i tell myself not to look obsessively at my buddy list, but it might as well be projected onto the insides of my eyelids. at 8:05 his name pops up, and i start to count. i only get to twelve before his IM pops up.

People often say that when couples are married for a long time, they start to look alike. I don't believe that. But I do believe their sentences start to look alike.

I have no more idea now of who I am than I did before. But at least I know that. And I'm starting to figure out who I want to be.

I try to be a careful person. Most of the time my carelessness is completely unintentional.

His books are kept on freestanding shelves hung at different angles on a sea-green wall. They defy gravity, as good books should.