What separates us from the animals, what separates us from the chaos, is our ability to mourn people weโve never met.
David LevithanOnce the storm comes out, the landscape changes. What you had before is altered in some way. And you have a choice: build something new and better from what is left or abandon it.
David LevithanThat whole week, we started to divide things into those two categories: anything or something. A piece of jewelry bougth at a department store: anything. A piece of jewelry made by hand: something. A dollar: anything. A sand dollar: something. A gift certificate: anything. An IOU for two hours of starwatching: something. A drunk kiss at a party: anything. A sober kiss alone in a park: something.
David LevithanWhat a horrible feeling that is, to know that if the disease [AIDS] had primarily affected PTA presidents, or priests, or white teenage girls, the epidemic would have been ended years earlier, and tens of thousands, if not hundreds of thousands of lives would have been saved.
David Levithanbeing with someone for over a year can mean that you love them โฆ but it can also mean youโre trapped.
David LevithanVoid is when there is absolutely nothing there and the nothing is natural, a complete vacuum. But empty - with empty, you are aware of what's supposed to be there. Empty means something is missing.
David LevithanYou spend so much time, so much effort, trying to hold yourself together. And then everything falls apart anyway.
David LevithanI couldn't remember ordinary moments, only the ones that had made an impression. Ordinary moments were the ones that fell away first.
David LevithanMeasure the hope of that moment, that feeling. Everything else will be measured against it.
David LevithanThen I go in the den and turn on Law & Order, since the only thing i can really count on in life is that whenever I turn on the TV, there will be a Law & Order episode.
David LevithanYou made me lose my appetite, Boomer." "My mom tells me that all the time. Your family must be just like mine!
David LevithanI had no idea what I wanted, only that I wanted something, which is the worst kind of wanting.
David LevithanNew Yorkers love the bigness -- the skyscrapers, the freedom, the lights. But they also love it when they can carve out some smallness for themselves. When the guy at the corner store knows which newspaper you want. When the barista has your order ready before you open your mouth. When you start to recognize the people in your orbit, and you know that, say, if you're waiting for the subway at eight fifteen on the dot, odds are the redhead with the red umbrella is going to be there too.
David Levithanhealthy, adj. There are times when I'm alone that I think, This is it. This is actually the natural state. All I need are my thoughts and my small acts of creation and my ability to go or do whatever I want to go or do. I am myself, and that is the point. Pairing is a social construction. It is by no means necessary for everyone to do it. Maybe I'm better like this. Maybe I could live my life in my own world, and then simply leave it when it's time to go.
David LevithanThe ocean makes its music; the wind does its dance. We hold on. At first we hold on to one another, but then it starts to feel like we are holding on to something even bigger than that. Greater.
David LevithanThere is a part of childhood that is childish, and a part that is sacred. Suddenly we are touching the sacred part -- running to the shoreline, feeling the first cold burst of water on our ankles, reaching into the tide to catch at shells before they ebb away from our fingers. We have returned to a world that is capable of glistening, and we are wading deeper within it.
David LevithanDeep down, you see, I long to be arcane, esoteric. I would love to confound people with their own language.
David LevithanIt is an awful thing to be betrayed by your body. And itโs lonely, because you feel you canโt talk about it.
David LevithanMaybe tonight you're scared of falling, and maybe there's somebody here or somewhere else you're thinking about, worrying over, fretting over, trying to figure out if you want to fall, or how and when you're gonna land, and i gotta tell you, friends, to stop thinking about the landing, because it's all about falling.
David LevithanThis is not something insignificant. This is real. This is happening, and this is ours.
David LevithanI no longer think she's just being nice. She's being kind. Which is much more a sign of character than mere niceness. Kindness connects to who you are, while niceness connects to how you want to be seen.
David LevithanKindness connects to who you are, while niceness connects to how you want to be seen.
David LevithanHe was my first boyfriend, and I made him my everything - he was my new life, my new love, my new compass point. I guess that's the danger with firsts - you lose all sense of proportion.
David LevithanAll this hoping for something- or someone- that's maybe hopeless. I'm having a hard time processing what I am supposed to believe, or if I'm even supposed to. There is too much information, and I don't like a lot of it.
David Levithanme: you know what sucks about love? o.w.g.: what? me: that it's so tied to the truth.
David LevithanWith some break-ups, all you can think about afterwards is how badly it ended and how much the other person hurt you. With others, you become sentimental for the good times and lose track of what went wrong.
David LevithanDeep breaths. I am taking deep breaths. Composure. Which, for me, means composing... Maybe this is my way of creating the illusion of control over something I have no control over. Like, if it's just a story I'm telling or a song I'm singing, then I'll be okay because I'm the guy who's providing the words.
David Levithanluckily, tiny texts me every five minutes or so. i don't know how he does it without getting caught in class. maybe he hides the phone in the folds of his stomach or something.
David LevithanI am stronger than words and I am bigger than the box I'm in, and then I see her in the crowd and I fall apart.
David LevithanSharing truth is not the kind of gift that comes in wrapping paper - ripped open once and, there, you're done. No, this is a gift that must be unfolded.
David LevithanI was sixteen and equipped with the appropriate genitalia, so I cleared that hurdle nicely.
David LevithanI know there are epic tales of romance, where love means you're supposed to die. Where it's all about sacrifice. But I don't want to die. I don't want Stephen to die. I'm looking for the scenario where we both get to live. Where we can continue this marvel that is love and discovery and trust.
David LevithanAfter working for so long on being sure of each other, sure of this thing, suddenly we were unsure again.
David LevithanFor the Jesus Revolutionaries, the answer was clear: Jesus would not be out waging "preventative" wars. Jesus would not be withholding medicine from people who could not afford it. Jesus would not cast stones at people of races, sexual orientatons, or genders other than His own. Jesus would not condone the failing, viperous, scandalplagued hierarchy of some churches. Jesus would welcome everyone to his his table. He would love them, and he would find peace.
David LevithanHereโs what I know about the realm of possibilityโ it is always expanding, it is never what you think it is. Everything around us was once deemed impossible. From the airplane overhead to the phones in our pockets to the choir girl putting her arm around the metalhead. As hard as it is for us to see sometimes, we all exist within the realm of possibility. Most of the limits are of our own worldโs devising. And yet, every day we each do so many things that were once impossible to us.
David Levithan