Looking after children can be a subtle way of giving up... They become the whole ones, the well ones, the postponement of happiness, the ones who won't drink too much, give up, get divorced, become mentally ill. The part of oneself that's fighting against decay and depression is transferred to guarding them from decay and depression. In the meantime one decays and gets depressed.
Edward St AubynThe thing about the 'Melrose' novels is that I have to feel they're impossible when I set out.
Edward St AubynDetachment is what interests me, seeing how people couldn't have been any other way, how they were the product of forces that they had no control over.
Edward St AubynIrony is the hardest addiction of all. Forget heroin. Just try giving up irony, the deep-down need to mean two things at once, to be in two places at once, not to be there for the catastrophe of a fixed meaning.
Edward St Aubyn