I am racking my brains to find out why he left without saying goodby to me.

God, I am afraid he won't give me his answer today. If only somebody would help me - it is all so terribly depressing.

I am racking my brains to find out why he left without saying goodby to me.

If I had a dog I would not feel so lonely, but I suppose that is asking for too much.

Today I bought two lottery tickets, because I had a feeling that it would be now or never - they were both blanks. So I am not going to be rich after all. Nothing at all to be done about it.

I have now reached the happy age of 23. No, happy is not quite the right word. At this particular moment I am certainly not happy.

There is only one thing I want. I would like to be seriously ill, and to hear nothing more about him for at least a week. Why doesn't something happen to me? Why do I have to go through all this? If only I had never set eyes on him!