I feel like a blonde nothingness, alone in my own body ...... Today it's not drugs that fill my body, its despair.

I thought Marilyn Monroe was the most beautiful woman in the world and Elizabeth Taylor breathtaking. But when I see myself on the screen I say: 'Oh shoot! What are they talking about?'

Im shy. I can go on a trip for days and not go because I wont sit on a toilet seat on a plane. Im certainly not going to go on somebodys lawn. Could you imagine, in a cocktail dress?

I'm a private person. I'm shy about people knowing things.

Stress is what feeds your cancer. Stress is what gives you cancer and then there's the paparazzi giving you stress.

There are no words to express how sad and devastated I am. I have lost one of my dearest friends, and the industry has lost a giant.

But I must never forget how blessed I have been. God has given me gifts and happiness, beyond any of my simple desires. My deepest desire now is to simply live... So with hope and determination, I'd hold on and go on.