When I came to Chelsea from West Ham there were certain parts of my game I felt I needed to improve and I like to think now that I have shown dramatic improvement.

I don't want to be a passenger sitting on the bench not doing much, even in my older years.

Of course it is going to be difficult for any player to get in the Chelsea side no matter who they are.

I had a fear of losing, a fear of what might happen if I had a bad game. Would I get dropped? I don't remember a lot of stuff in my career.

If players are performing for you, their age shouldn't really matter, especially because the older players can bring their experience to the table.

Having grown up watching Barcelona, Elen gets a bit annoyed watching me if I don't do flicks and tricks like Ronaldinho. I have to explain you can't do that all the time in a game!

Every season will have its dips and hard moments, and the challenge then is to make sure you don't get too down in those moments and make sure you come back fighting.