It's impossible to defend oneself in the absence of goodwill

One advantage in keeping a diary is that you become aware with reassuring clarity of the changes which you constantly suffer.

"Don't you want to join us?" I was recently asked by an acquaintance when he ran across me alone after midnight in a coffeehouse that was already almost deserted. "No, I don't," I said.

it was like this. the brain could no longer bear the worries and pains that were imposed on it. it said: "i'm giving up; but if there is anyone else here who is interested in preserving the whole, let him assume part of my burden and it will be alright for a bit.

You see, I have only such a fugitive awareness of things around me that I always feel they were once real and are now fleeting away.

The Diabolical sometimes assumes the aspect of the Good, or even embodies itself completely in its form. If this remains concealedfrom me, I am of course defeated, for this Good is more tempting than the genuine Good.

Writers speak stench.