They had the same fears that you have, the same aggressive tendencies and the same attachments, but they were freed in time because they believed.
Frederick LenzDon't listen to voices. If you hear voices talking to you, forget it. Disregard the information, even if it is right occasionally. You are dealing with non-physical forces that are trying to influence you.
Frederick LenzZen and Buddhism have produced martial arts, because of the Buddhist injunction against weapons.
Frederick LenzAre you still carrying everyone who's insulted you, injured you or interfered with you? That's a lot of weight. I'd let it go, personally, and just move on and forget. Be in the moment. Don't even notice.
Frederick Lenz