People don't grow up to become thrill junkies - they're born like that.

I was the kid who would take the car out at night when he was 16 and see if he can redline it. And then there's the kid who will be careful of it because it's his dad's car, or whatever, and drive it safely home and go to bed. And that's how my whole life was.

I suddenly began to realize that to become an entrepreneur in the marijuana business would make me fairly well off. And I also liked the lifestyle, my own working hours.

In fact, I was welcomed. There were movie stars and rock stars. I became a pot star. I glorified in that. And of course as time wore on the business began to expand and grow. It went from more or less a college fun thing to a serious business. As the money grew, the power grew.

After a while, the cocaine - I didn't have any friends. I was just alone and I didn't even like myself.

If somebody had come to me and said will you move heroin, I would have told them no.

I hope there's a life after life - and maybe I can even come back again and get on another train, and ride and gain some more wisdom.