Unfortunately, since the Sept. 11 tragedy, our business is not doing too well.

We were led to a pediatric ophthalmologist. It's a hard date for me, April 14, 1998. The doctor came back from the examining room and told us she had tumors in both eyes.

I had just won the lawsuit against Melrose Place.

I have a really great relationship with God. I pray. I read the Bible.

So, not only am I panicking over the weekend if I need to know my lines, but also if can I get the kids to the zoo. Can I even go to church? I was asking for certain things that would allow me to plan my life a little better.

The house seemed so empty without him. And I thought about the life we'd been building together for all that time. I realized I was on the brink of losing it all. It just scared me into reality.

I kind of thought the writers were starting to take Taylor and make her kind of down and dirty.