I have a really great relationship with God. I pray. I read the Bible.

It was scary, and I knew what it was like to be an unemployed actress again.

I kind of thought the writers were starting to take Taylor and make her kind of down and dirty.

Unfortunately, since the Sept. 11 tragedy, our business is not doing too well.

The house seemed so empty without him. And I thought about the life we'd been building together for all that time. I realized I was on the brink of losing it all. It just scared me into reality.

So, not only am I panicking over the weekend if I need to know my lines, but also if can I get the kids to the zoo. Can I even go to church? I was asking for certain things that would allow me to plan my life a little better.

I had just won the lawsuit against Melrose Place.